Red-Headed Stepchild

Why?
Why did you ignore me?
Why did you neglect me?
What did I ever do to you?

You treated my siblings like champions
But you treated me like a chump
You have no idea how much that hurt me
But then again, you probably didn't care

You only cared about yourself and your son, my father
I began to loathe you
You selfish bastard

Then Dad died
Then you became sick
But everyone abandoned you and put you in a nursing home

How does it feel?
Hurts, doesn't it?
You're getting just what you deserve

As you withered away
I began to blossom
I didn't care what happened to you then
I still don't care now

Were you sorry?
Maybe you were
But it was too late
You had hurt me too much

Then you died
But I wasn't fazed at all
I didn't even attend your funeral

Good riddance to you
I hope you're rotting in hell
That's what you get for treating me
Like a red-headed stepchild

Lies

I used to look up to you
I loved being around you
I thought you could do no wrong
You were a role model to me

But little did I know, you had a deep,dark secret
Your insatiable lust for men

At first I pretended not to see it
Wearing a pair of rose-colored glasses

But then you betrayed me
Not once, but twice
For some low-down nigga
Who ain't worth shit

Now, no thanks to you
Mom and I are barely getting by
You still with that asshole
Why am I not surprised?

Now when I see you, I don't know what to think
Part of me says to hate you, another part says to love you
As much as I'd wish you'd change
I can't help someone who doesn't wanna be helped

You put me and my mom through hell
But I wish you well
We will no longer fall victim
To your deadly, poisonous lies

My National Anthem

Pain consumes my mind
My purpose for living, I'm trying to find
Darkness consumes my soul
Will death swallow me whole?

I'm so unique
I'm so dark
I'm so deep
I'm so rebel

God or not, I can't decide
If tradition is Jedi
Then I am the dark side

Depression crashes on my head
This wretched,warm cozy knife
My cuts pour out red liquid
Reminding me I wish I was dead

The misery of living in the ghetto
Insanity plagues my mind
The people are deliciously disgusting
My hopes and dreams, they are taking

The sun sickens me
The moon heals me
Light is my enemy
Darkness is my ally

Oh, the toll this terrible life takes on my soul
Oh, the toll this terrible life takes on my soul

I find beauty in darkness
Death and suicide thrill me
I can't love everybody
Then again I don't want to

Love is so overrated
What is the point of it?
It's a double-edged sword
That cuts both ways

Welcome to my warped reality
If you don't express individuality
You are not welcome here
Good-bye I'll see you soon