Mother

I remember waking up next to you

I remember your lovely laugh

I remember your beautiful smile

Bottles of perfume scattered everywhere

Along with lotion and make-up

I love you with all my heart

I miss your long lectures

Your tidiness

How you would always look at the positives

You never said anything bad

About anyone

No matter how badly they wronged you

You carried yourself like a queen

And always held your head high

You were truly a diamond in the rough

Mother

I miss you so much

You were my guardian angel

You were always there for me

Through thick and thin

Who can I trust now that you're gone?

I never thought that you would leave me

So suddenly

But you're not suffering anymore

You're at peace now

And I'm happy about that

Mother

I know you're smiling down on me

It's hard imagining life without you

But I have to press on

For your sake if not mine

I love you to the moon and back

I will always carry you in my heart

Farewell Mother

I'll see you one day

I love you

Red-Headed Stepchild

Why?
Why did you ignore me?
Why did you neglect me?
What did I ever do to you?

You treated my siblings like champions
But you treated me like a chump
You have no idea how much that hurt me
But then again, you probably didn't care

You only cared about yourself and your son, my father
I began to loathe you
You selfish bastard

Then Dad died
Then you became sick
But everyone abandoned you and put you in a nursing home

How does it feel?
Hurts, doesn't it?
You're getting just what you deserve

As you withered away
I began to blossom
I didn't care what happened to you then
I still don't care now

Were you sorry?
Maybe you were
But it was too late
You had hurt me too much

Then you died
But I wasn't fazed at all
I didn't even attend your funeral

Good riddance to you
I hope you're rotting in hell
That's what you get for treating me
Like a red-headed stepchild

Lies

I used to look up to you
I loved being around you
I thought you could do no wrong
You were a role model to me

But little did I know, you had a deep,dark secret
Your insatiable lust for men

At first I pretended not to see it
Wearing a pair of rose-colored glasses

But then you betrayed me
Not once, but twice
For some low-down nigga
Who ain't worth shit

Now, no thanks to you
Mom and I are barely getting by
You still with that asshole
Why am I not surprised?

Now when I see you, I don't know what to think
Part of me says to hate you, another part says to love you
As much as I'd wish you'd change
I can't help someone who doesn't wanna be helped

You put me and my mom through hell
But I wish you well
We will no longer fall victim
To your deadly, poisonous lies

My National Anthem

Pain consumes my mind
My purpose for living, I'm trying to find
Darkness consumes my soul
Will death swallow me whole?

I'm so unique
I'm so dark
I'm so deep
I'm so rebel

God or not, I can't decide
If tradition is Jedi
Then I am the dark side

Depression crashes on my head
This wretched,warm cozy knife
My cuts pour out red liquid
Reminding me I wish I was dead

The misery of living in the ghetto
Insanity plagues my mind
The people are deliciously disgusting
My hopes and dreams, they are taking

The sun sickens me
The moon heals me
Light is my enemy
Darkness is my ally

Oh, the toll this terrible life takes on my soul
Oh, the toll this terrible life takes on my soul

I find beauty in darkness
Death and suicide thrill me
I can't love everybody
Then again I don't want to

Love is so overrated
What is the point of it?
It's a double-edged sword
That cuts both ways

Welcome to my warped reality
If you don't express individuality
You are not welcome here
Good-bye I'll see you soon

Many Sides Of Me

Love
I love hearts and Valentine's Day
I'll love you regardless of your way
My favorite color is red
"I love you" many people said

Hate
I hate lots of things
Your voice in my ear constantly rings
I can't stand to be around you
I could care less if you hate me too

Pain
My wounds cry for the grave
I'm in my own little cave
My soul cries for deliverance
You don't know how much it hurts to be me

Emotional
My mood changes like the wind
People are a godsend
I get hurt easily
I soak up emotions like a sponge

Unpredictable
My life is constant ups and downs
I hear so many sounds
Every day is a touch and go
Why must I worry so?

Anger
I despise so many things
I wish I had wings
I just want to annihilate
What is my fate?

Unique
Everyone looks,talks,and acts the same
They're all pathetic and lame
See me roar,see me rule
See the mirror,you'll see a fool

Tough
I hide my true self from others
To avoid getting hurt
These people are like wolves
They prey on anyone who's weak

Escapist
Anime,video games,and music are my passions
They are my only rations
They help me escape
From this cold,cruel world

Kind
I can't stand to see anyone or anything in pain
Their loss is never my gain
So many people are suffering
Death is lingering

Rebel
I don't follow the crowd
I have my own sound
I don't obey standards
I make up my own rules

Epilogue
As you can see
There are many sides of me
Where do I belong?
You'll just have to follow along

My Ultimate Companion

Music
My ultimate companion
It'll never betray me
It'll never forsake me

A letdown is worth a few songs
A heartbreak is worth a few albums

Whatever your trials and tests
Music always leaves you feeling your best
No matter what you're going through
Music is the best person to go to

It'll never leave me
It'll never hurt me
It'll always protect me
It'll always love me

Music
My ultimate companion

Crushes

Crushes
So confusing,yet so exciting
You can have a crush on anybody
Teachers,celebrities,classmates
It's all natural


But what if you like someone who's already taken?
It's best to move on
Rather than fight over him


What if you like two guys at the same time?
You have to choose one over the other
It's only fair


Crushes
They can be a pain in the neck
But how can you experience love without crushes?